busy day

today was busy just like yesterday. we have been going from store to store looking for a photo printer but could not find the one that we were looking for its an hp photo smart compact printer but we settled with something else i had to go to a viewing and it was kinda hard not because i was going to view the body of my dead friend (im good with dead bodies and all that) but the hard part was that the place that the viewing was at was the same place were we had my grandfathers viewing i was walking past the room where his body was and in mid stride i just stopped turned pointed with my mouth open and i knew the others could see the hurt on my face my grandma said i know its ok keep walking so i did and while walking down the hall i stuffed all those emotions back down deep and sucked it up they need me to be strong so i have to be
my grandpa was my bestest friend in the whole wide world

i thought i was strong but as i was talking to a friend the daughter of the man who pasted away i soon realized i wasnt so strong. i started to tear up so i turned my head and wiped my tears
and now looking back at that moment how could i have been so foolish to be so weak when i was next to a friend who had just lost her Dad.
that was not ok.